Talking about my depression (blog post)

Being depressed is hard..especially when you can't fully figure out why you're like that. I obviously know SOME of the reasons...but there are some things..well I just have a sense of melancholy. It's there a lot of the time.

It gets worse when the weather is gloomy. We're having cool weather here right now. Which adds to the melancholy for sure.

A lot of my depression comes from regrets...wishing I would have done things a certain way. The funny thing is, I know regretting is stupid. It doesn't make any sense.

Things happened the way they did for a reason. It was meant to be that way. Why look back and wish you could change things?

I need to start looking ahead more and be grateful for where I'm at in life. That's the best way. But as far as the depression..I don't really know how to get rid of it. It comes in waves.

It's one of those things I just have to "ride out" and let it go on its own. 

I follow the yin/yang philosophy of the Taoists...knowing that everything in life comes and goes and there is positive and negative and cycles.

So knowing that, there is no way to be happy all the time..it simply doesn't work. When you're happy, it's temporary, just like when you're sad.

The sad times make us appreciate the happy. Sometimes you have to have the opposite of something so you can appreciate it.

It's the great irony of life. We can't all walk around being happy constantly..what kind of world would that be?

It might actually depress us more to be like that. I'm glad we can experience all we can in life.