I've been depressed lately

Trying not to be depressed but it's hard. It's just a lot of things. The fall weather does it to me even worse, even though I have depression no matter what time of year it is. I think I feel things a lot deeper than some people.

I could be wrong..it just seems like some things really hit me hard. I think I've just been more emotional since my Mom died.

That was really hard for me. I didn't get therapy for it, which I probably should but I can't bring myself too.

I still try to deal with it every day. It's been like 2 years and I am still pretty raw from it. 

I know it will be a long time before I'm "OK"..I just have to keep working through it.

Some days are a lot harder than others. Some days I'm so depressed and I miss her so much...all I want to do is lay around and do nothing.

Sometimes I am just too down to do anything so I just barely get anything done. That's just how it is I guess.

It's been a while since I've felt truly "OK".

But I put one foot in front of the other..just hoping for things to get better.

I actually do have faith and I know things will get better. After I get out of this dark period. Things are good in a lot of ways but something is missing.

I just need to give it time..everything will be OK.