I'm feeling thankful (blog post)

Feeling really thankful for everything right now. Life is good. Some days you just realize how blessed you are.

Which is funny because I woke up super depressed this morning. I actually went back to sleep for a couple hours after I woke up, that's how depressed I was.

But after I finally got up and did a few things..I started to feel better. 

Sometimes just getting moving is all you need.

Sometimes you just look around you and realize things aren't so bad after all. There's always something to be grateful for.

The weather is very warm but I'm very thankful that it's finally summer. I was so over the cold weather.

It was a long winter it seemed. 

I hope to do a lot of fun things this summer. 

Gratitude is the best way to be. There's always something to be grateful for. Life is a blessing for sure.

Nyan cat (my thoughts on the meme)

Nyan Cat! I used to sit there and Nyan often..watching the pop-tart cat running along. It was so fun. I saw a video today of a guy sight-reading/playing Nyan Cat on piano.

It was so awesome, I had to go back to Nyan.cat again..it had been so long. They have lots of new flavors of Nyan Cat now!

It's one of the greatest memes ever..I will never get tired of it. 

It's funny how you don't hear anything about a meme for a while and then it pops up and you're like "oh yeah!"

The internet is such an awesome place, we're so blessed to have it. 

I love memes..they are so awesome. I hope we get plenty more memes like this one. It seems like there are constantly new memes coming out for us to laugh at. 

Feeling some type of way (blog post)

I'm glad the warm weather is here. It's really hot outside actually. I have my windows shut so the hot air doesn't come in.

There's something about right now though that is making me sad. I'm not sure what it is. Just a combination of things.

I just miss certain things..certain people. I miss certain times in my life. I think I spend too much time in the past instead of enjoying the present.

I just wish I would have done certain things differently..wish I didn't make some of those mistakes I made.

I guess you live and you learn. I can't punish myself forever. I need to realize that everything happens for a reason..everything is meant to be.

I just have a longing in my soul for certain things and certain people. I miss some of my old friends that I used to have.

As far as I'm concerned we are still friends even though we haven't seen each other in years. That love will never change.

Being a YouTuber is extremely draining

Being a Youtuber..is a LOT of hard work. It's so draining. I used to enjoy it a lot. These days I'm not sure how much I do.

I'm sure I will again once I take a break. Blogging has always been my main passion and love..since I started this whole internet journey thing.

Youtube would probably be like my second love next to blogging..when it comes to internet stuff. But Youtube is draining in a different way. Making videos takes a lot of energy.

Blogging takes energy too obviously but it's a little different. I really miss blogging when I take long breaks.

I just love writing..expressing my thoughts. You will see a lot more blogging from me in the near future. Maybe I just need to focus on blogging, since I enjoy it so much.

I enjoy making videos as well, but it's just more difficult and more exhausting than blogging.

In the "EDM mood"

I'm in the mood to listen to some EDM. It's one of my favorite types of music. You might be thinking "which sub-genre of EDM?".

Well..I like most of it..to be honest. Dance, house, trance, techno, dubstep..you name it..I like most of it.

I was SUPER heavy into it a few years ago. I think maybe I just needed a break. I go through phases. Lately I've been listening to a lot of witch house..that's one of my favorite sub-genres of electronic music. It's so awesome.

I think I may jump back into it head on..I've just been missing it..especially trance. I really love dubstep too.

I like so much of it. It's like entering into another dimension! People who are into it know exactly what I'm talking about.

I'm way behind on Star Wars (blog post)

I used to be a lot more into Star Wars. I'm still into it..but I just have other things going on. To sit down and really watch the films takes time and energy.

It's one of those things I'll always have love for..I just need to find the time to sit down and catch up on the last few movies.

There are a lot of things in life that I still want to do. I just have to make the time for them and just make myself do it.

I get so busy with my YouTube channel that I let a lot of other things fall by the wayside. That's kind of sad.

Talking about my depression (blog post)

Being depressed is hard..especially when you can't fully figure out why you're like that. I obviously know SOME of the reasons...but there are some things..well I just have a sense of melancholy. It's there a lot of the time.

It gets worse when the weather is gloomy. We're having cool weather here right now. Which adds to the melancholy for sure.

A lot of my depression comes from regrets...wishing I would have done things a certain way. The funny thing is, I know regretting is stupid. It doesn't make any sense.

Things happened the way they did for a reason. It was meant to be that way. Why look back and wish you could change things?

I need to start looking ahead more and be grateful for where I'm at in life. That's the best way. But as far as the depression..I don't really know how to get rid of it. It comes in waves.

It's one of those things I just have to "ride out" and let it go on its own. 

I follow the yin/yang philosophy of the Taoists...knowing that everything in life comes and goes and there is positive and negative and cycles.

So knowing that, there is no way to be happy all the time..it simply doesn't work. When you're happy, it's temporary, just like when you're sad.

The sad times make us appreciate the happy. Sometimes you have to have the opposite of something so you can appreciate it.

It's the great irony of life. We can't all walk around being happy constantly..what kind of world would that be?

It might actually depress us more to be like that. I'm glad we can experience all we can in life.

bowl cut maintenance.wmv

This video is awesome. I remember when I first learned about "bowl cut guy". This guy is hilarious. I actually went through a phase where I was watching his youtube channel all the time.

I haven't watched it in a long time though, I'm not sure what he's up to these days. This video is hilarious though.

Just a guy giving himself a bowl cut. 

His hair is pretty epic though, you have to admit. His video blew up and went viral on youtube.

Lucky for sure. It would be awesome to have a video blow up like that. He became very well known after this video blew up.

UPDATE: I watched Hamish's Youtube channel for a year or two pretty regularly after I found this video. He's a pretty well-known Youtuber at this point. He's made a very nice life for himself and is a genuinely nice guy.

Go check out his channel if you get a chance, it will change your life. It's amazing what going viral can do for you, as he is very well-known now.

This too shall pass (inspirational quote)

No matter what you're going through in your life…remember, it will pass. Trials don't last forever. It will get better. Keep your head up and keep hoping for the best. The storm will pass, and the sun will shine again…it always does.

Every storm will pass

You have to realize that everything in life is temporary. Things don't just get "stuck". The energy of life and the universe is always changing and flowing.

So every situation eventually changes into a different situation. That's just how it is. If you're in a situation that you want to change, just give it some time.

Hang in there

Just be patient, and eventually you'll end up where you need to be. You never stay "stuck" in one place for too long.

Think about any hard times you've ever had in your life. Didn't they pass eventually? You got through it, and you're still standing here today.

You will make it

You've survived all your storms so far, and you'll survive whatever comes in the future. Stay positive and good things will happen to you.

Let your smile change the world (inspirational quote)

But no matter what you do, don't let the world change your smile. Don't let anyone bring you down. Keep smiling no matter what.

Life has its ups and downs. But keep a positive attitude through it all. Because sometimes life surprises you and gives you reasons to smile.

So keep the faith and keep going no matter what.

If you have faith, you'll find that things do get better. You just have to believe. Don't let the opinions of others change who you are.

Don't let anything interfere with your happiness. 

Life can be amazing if you let it. Just keep going and you'll get surprised sometimes. Life can surprise you in great ways. 

Keep smiling and keep moving no matter what. 💚

The weekend is here

Happy Thursday! I'm super excited about the weekend. I'm ready to let some stress off. It's been a long week. I'm back in my home office again, I was using another room as my office for a long time but I'm back in my original office.

It feels great, I missed it. Right now I'm feeling super grateful..life is full of blessings you just have to be grateful for the small things.

This year is all about letting the positive energy flow. I'm ready to do that. I'm trying to leave my bad habits in 2018.

Ready to move forward and have an awesome 2019!

It's cold..very cold (blog post)

It's super cold outside..but I guess we already know that, I don't have to say it. I feel so bad for people who don't have homes. I wish there was more I could do to help them.

Nobody should have to be outside in this freezing cold weather..especially when there's snow, etc.

And think of all the animals who are stuck outside in it. Don't you feel horrible for them? Cold weather is no joke for so many people. 

I really don't care for cold weather, I wish it would go away. I prefer it when it's warm outside. Warm weather is my jam.

I think most of us love warm weather if we're being honest.

Happy New Year..2019!

It's a new year...we're in the future! It's 2019! I'm super excited about this year. It's already amazing..it's going to be the best year ever..I can already feel it.

It's just all-around good vibes. I'm going to try to blog more. I love blogging. I miss doing it regularly like I used to. So I'm going to try to do that more.

I've been YouTubing a lot. There's a balance. I'm going to try to stay more positive this year and complain less.

Just going to try to be grateful for everything I have! I hope you have an amazing year too..Thank you guys for sticking around. I will be blogging more, don't worry.

Let's have an amazing 2019 and beyond!

UPDATE: It's now 2022, as I revisit this blog post. Wow, a lot of things have changed in the last 3 years. It's amazing how fast time flies. But I'm very grateful for everything.

Life is really amazing if you think about it. There's always so much to be grateful for. No matter what year you're in, whenever New Year's day comes around, you can start fresh.