I had a traumatic experience (need to talk about it)

I saw something yesterday that really freaked me out. I am still kind of in shock. I saw an accident where an old woman fell directly on her face on the concrete. ON HER FACE.

I heard her head hit the pavement…it was a loud slap. I ran over to see if she was ok. I was trying to talk to her, but she was just having convulsions. 

A cartoon man in shock with eyes and mouth wide open.

I don't think I've ever seen someone have convulsions like that. It was really shocking for me to see. 

I didn't know what to do

Thankfully, a bunch of people came over to help and sort of took over the situation. 

I'm glad other people were there to help because I didn't know what to do.

I am still in shock. I'm having a really hard time dealing with it. I don't know how to handle it. I've just been trying to take it easy at home and give myself time to try to deal with this.

I was really messed up for a couple of hours after I got home

I am still messed up. I have the image in my head too…that really sucks. I don't want to think about it.
I guess in time I will be ok, but I don't feel very ok right now. I don't even know if she survived or not; that's the sad part.

UPDATE 2023:

I honestly don't think about the moment that much anymore. I forget about it most of the time, actually. It's funny how time can really heal things. I think I'm probably over the trauma part of it. Or maybe I still have scars, but I just don't think about it much.

Time really does heal all. So give things time; it will get better. And you can't dwell on things. The more time goes by, the more you will heal from things.