I had a traumatic experience

I saw something yesterday that really freaked me out. I am still kind of in shock. I saw an accident where an old woman fell directly on her face on the concrete. ON HER FACE.

I heard her head hit the pavement…it was a loud slap. I ran over to see if she was ok. I was trying to talk to her, but she was just having convulsions.

I don't think I've ever seen someone have convulsions like that. It was really shocking for me to see. 

I didn't know what to do

Thankfully, a bunch of people came over to help and sort of took over the situation. I'm glad other people were there to help because I didn't know what to do.

I am still in shock. I'm having a really hard time dealing with it. I don't know how to handle it. I've just been trying to take it easy at home and give myself time to try to deal with this.

I was really messed up for a couple of hours after I got home

I am still messed up. I have the image in my head too…that really sucks. I don't want to think about it.
I guess in time I will be ok, but I don't feel very ok right now. 

UPDATE 2023:

I honestly don't think about the moment that much anymore. I forget about it most of the time, actually. It's funny how time can really heal things. I think I'm probably over the trauma part of it. Or maybe I still have scars, but I just don't think about it much.

Time really does heal all. So give things time, it will get better. And you can't dwell on things. The more times goes by, the more you will heal from things.