I'm feeling thankful (blog post)

Feeling really thankful for everything right now. Life is good. Some days you just realize how blessed you are.

Which is funny because I woke up super depressed this morning. I actually went back to sleep for a couple hours after I woke up, that's how depressed I was.

But after I finally got up and did a few things..I started to feel better. 

Sometimes just getting moving is all you need.

Sometimes you just look around you and realize things aren't so bad after all. There's always something to be grateful for.

The weather is very warm but I'm very thankful that it's finally summer. I was so over the cold weather.

It was a long winter it seemed. 

I hope to do a lot of fun things this summer. 

Gratitude is the best way to be. There's always something to be grateful for. Life is a blessing for sure.

Nyan cat (my thoughts on the meme)

Nyan Cat! I used to sit there and Nyan often..watching the pop-tart cat running along. It was so fun. I saw a video today of a guy sight-reading/playing Nyan Cat on piano.

It was so awesome, I had to go back to Nyan.cat again..it had been so long. They have lots of new flavors of Nyan Cat now!

It's one of the greatest memes ever..I will never get tired of it. 

It's funny how you don't hear anything about a meme for a while and then it pops up and you're like "oh yeah!"

The internet is such an awesome place, we're so blessed to have it. 

I love memes..they are so awesome. I hope we get plenty more memes like this one. It seems like there are constantly new memes coming out for us to laugh at. 

Feeling some type of way (blog post)

I'm glad the warm weather is here. It's really hot outside actually. I have my windows shut so the hot air doesn't come in.

There's something about right now though that is making me sad. I'm not sure what it is. Just a combination of things.

I just miss certain things..certain people. I miss certain times in my life. I think I spend too much time in the past instead of enjoying the present.

I just wish I would have done certain things differently..wish I didn't make some of those mistakes I made.

I guess you live and you learn. I can't punish myself forever. I need to realize that everything happens for a reason..everything is meant to be.

I just have a longing in my soul for certain things and certain people. I miss some of my old friends that I used to have.

As far as I'm concerned we are still friends even though we haven't seen each other in years. That love will never change.

Being a YouTuber is extremely draining

Being a Youtuber..is a LOT of hard work. It's so draining. I used to enjoy it a lot. These days I'm not sure how much I do.

I'm sure I will again once I take a break. Blogging has always been my main passion and love..since I started this whole internet journey thing.

Youtube would probably be like my second love next to blogging..when it comes to internet stuff. But Youtube is draining in a different way. Making videos takes a lot of energy.

Blogging takes energy too obviously but it's a little different. I really miss blogging when I take long breaks.

I just love writing..expressing my thoughts. You will see a lot more blogging from me in the near future. Maybe I just need to focus on blogging, since I enjoy it so much.

I enjoy making videos as well, but it's just more difficult and more exhausting than blogging.

In the "EDM mood"

I'm in the mood to listen to some EDM. It's one of my favorite types of music. You might be thinking "which sub-genre of EDM?".

Well..I like most of it..to be honest. Dance, house, trance, techno, dubstep..you name it..I like most of it.

I was SUPER heavy into it a few years ago. I think maybe I just needed a break. I go through phases. Lately I've been listening to a lot of witch house..that's one of my favorite sub-genres of electronic music. It's so awesome.

I think I may jump back into it head on..I've just been missing it..especially trance. I really love dubstep too.

I like so much of it. It's like entering into another dimension! People who are into it know exactly what I'm talking about.

I'm way behind on Star Wars (blog post)

I used to be a lot more into Star Wars. I'm still into it..but I just have other things going on. To sit down and really watch the films takes time and energy.

It's one of those things I'll always have love for..I just need to find the time to sit down and catch up on the last few movies.

There are a lot of things in life that I still want to do. I just have to make the time for them and just make myself do it.

I get so busy with my YouTube channel that I let a lot of other things fall by the wayside. That's kind of sad.

Talking about my depression (blog post)

Being depressed is hard..especially when you can't fully figure out why you're like that. I obviously know SOME of the reasons...but there are some things..well I just have a sense of melancholy. It's there a lot of the time.

It gets worse when the weather is gloomy. We're having cool weather here right now. Which adds to the melancholy for sure.

A lot of my depression comes from regrets...wishing I would have done things a certain way. The funny thing is, I know regretting is stupid. It doesn't make any sense.

Things happened the way they did for a reason. It was meant to be that way. Why look back and wish you could change things?

I need to start looking ahead more and be grateful for where I'm at in life. That's the best way. But as far as the depression..I don't really know how to get rid of it. It comes in waves.

It's one of those things I just have to "ride out" and let it go on its own. 

I follow the yin/yang philosophy of the Taoists...knowing that everything in life comes and goes and there is positive and negative and cycles.

So knowing that, there is no way to be happy all the time..it simply doesn't work. When you're happy, it's temporary, just like when you're sad.

The sad times make us appreciate the happy. Sometimes you have to have the opposite of something so you can appreciate it.

It's the great irony of life. We can't all walk around being happy constantly..what kind of world would that be?

It might actually depress us more to be like that. I'm glad we can experience all we can in life.