Christmas and the New Year (and new blog design)

I'm ready for Christmas. I'm already in the spirit. I feel it. I am also ready for the new year. I am going to go ahead and say that 2018 has been very challenging in many ways. I hope next year is easier. But I will say that I had many blessings as well this year.

You have to focus on the good things. I'm sure everything I went through this year was for my own highest good..somehow..even if I can't always see it. You live and you learn.

I hope next year is filled with so much good luck and blessings..for everyone.

I decided to kick off the new year with a new blog design..hope you like it. I like it better than my old one. It looks cleaner.

I just wanted a fresh start for the New Year. I had that other design for a long time. I am going to try to be a better person next year. I'm going to try to just be happier and more grateful for everything.

A very inspirational quote!

If I cannot do great things, I can do small things in a great way. It's not about always doing "big" things...it's about the heart and soul you put into even the smallest acts.

Sometimes all you can do is small things. Sometimes you can only take small steps. You can't always do great things.

Every act matters

It's not about how "big" the act is, it's about the love and heart you put into it. It's about the thoughts. It's like giving someone a gift.

You can't always give them a big gift...but you can put a lot of thought into a small gift, so it actually means more to them.

What's it about?

It's more about the thought and feeling behind the act.

You can change the world one step at a time, one person at a time, one random act of kindness at a time. Remember, like Morgan Freeman says?

If you can dream it (inspirational quote)

If you can dream it, you can do it. Always believe in yourself and your dreams. If you can picture something in your mind then you can make it a reality.

First you just have to dream it and visualize it. That's the law of attraction at work.

Anything that you can picture in your mind, you can make a reality. Believe in yourself. Believe in the power of your dreams and goals. Create a vision and then bring it to reality. It really works. The law of attraction works for real.

Anything you want to achieve in your life, you first just have to picture it in your mind. Try it out for yourself, it really works.

Destiny is something you create (inspirational post)

You create your own destiny. You can create the life of your dreams. It's really true. You just have to believe in yourself. Have faith in God, the Universe. Have faith in miracles. Your destiny can be amazing. Just keep believing.

You don't have to leave your future up to chance

Believe that good things are in store for you. And then make it happen.

You have a lot more power than you think when it comes to shaping your destiny. 

You can take steps today to move closer to your dreams 

If you put in the work, the Universe will meet you have way, and create the best destiny for you. Your future will be amazing. There are always action steps you can take to move yourself into a better life. You really can create your own destiny. Keep moving towards your goals every day. I believe in you too, so never give up.

It's all about evolving

We should always try to progress as spiritual beings. Remove toxic and negative energy from your life. Eliminate everything that doesn't help you evolve.

If you're not learning and growing, what's the point? That doesn't mean you constantly have to grow. You can just relax sometimes and enjoy life.

But you should try to eliminate distractions and things that make you stray off of your path. Those aren't good.

Then you'll be aligned to reach your destiny and your dreams. Keep a narrow focus on your goal and you'll surely get there.

Keep moving and keep getting better.

Don't wait, the time will never be just right (inspirational quote)

Sometimes you have to go for your dreams right now. The time will never be just right, don't wait any longer.

Sometimes we let so much time pass before taking steps towards our dreams and goals. Don't wait so long. Sometimes if you wait too long, you'll never get that thing done and then you'll just end up with a bunch of regrets.

You really don't want that. 

You want to step forward and go after your dreams. You can't always wait, sometimes you just have to put one foot in front of the other and take a step. 

Dreams are brought to fruition one step at a time. If you take action, that's huge progress. Action steps are how you get things done and move forward in life.

Don't wait, the time will never be just right. I love this quote.

Appreciate the blessings (inspirational post)

Appreciate all the blessings in your life, take none for granted. There are blessings all around you, everywhere you look.

Just be grateful for all that God has blessed you with. You wouldn't be here without the Grace of God and the Universe.

The Universe is constantly blessing us and giving us reasons to be grateful. Never forget how blessed you are in life.

Look around and enjoy the little things. There are always things to be grateful for. Life is good. Life is amazing.

Cherish every moment of your life. Constantly walk in gratitude. 

It all leads somewhere good

If you're going through struggles, remember, it does get better and many blessings await you. Difficult roads lead to beautiful destinations. No matter what you're going through, it's all meant to help you grow and to lead you to your blessings.

Challenging situations are there because after they're over, the blessings come. They lead you down the right path to make your dreams come true. It's really true. After it rains, the sun comes out and you are blessed beyond belief. Just keep believing and keep hanging in there. The destination will be amazing.

Keep having faith and know that things will get better and better.

Just be yourself! (always)

Always be yourself in life. You are putting something amazing out into the world, by doing so. Let your light shine bright for the world to see. The right people will love the "real you".

We should all really strive to be ourselves. After all, we don't want to be like everyone else. We don't just want a bunch of copies running around. That's what makes life so amazing, is that everyone's different.

We're all these amazing unique people walking around. Each one of us is putting something great into the world.

Being yourself will also attract great things to you and will bring the right people into your life. Be authentic and be the real you.

There is good in every day! (inspiration)

Not every day is going to be great, but there is always something good in every day. You have to find the good things and just focus on them. They are always there. There is always something to be thankful for, don't forget that! Life is good. Life is full of blessings.

Anytime you think your day is not going well, just think that there is always something good to focus on. Just look around.

There are so many blessings and good things about life. If things aren't going the way you want, hang in there, things will get better eventually.

Feeling thankful..almost the weekend!

It's almost the weekend. I'm in a really good mood. I realized today that I worry too much about things that don't even matter.

It's part of my OCD stuff that I have. Sometimes I worry myself into anxiety attacks. It's not healthy. But sometimes I can't help it.

But I realized today that life is good and you don't need to worry because everything always works out. It's really true.

Just enjoy life and see where it takes you. I'm thankful it's the weekend..I hope it's a really good one. This week has been kind of long.

How I feel about people disabling comments (on Youtube)

Yeah, I can't stand it when people disable comments. I don't think it makes much sense. Unless you're just getting an absurd amount of trolls. Trolls can definitely be very annoying, I definitely understand. 

But I'm not sure if disabling comments entirely is the way to go.

You can, it is definitely one option. But you shouldn't be so concerned with what trolls have to say about you. Their opinion doesn't matter at all. 

It really doesn't.

You have to learn to just ignore them, especially if you want to be a Youtuber. Trolls are just a part of the game.

It's kind of annoying when I see a YouTube channel that has comments disabled. Comments are how you build a community around your channel. They are an important part of the whole thing.

UPDATE: It doesn't matter too much to me if people have comments disabled on their channel, to each their own. I do still feel they're important, as I did when I first wrote this post, but I understand some people might not want them because of trolls.

It's October again (blog post)

It's October again..time for Halloween pretty soon! I'm really excited about it. One of my favorite things to do on Halloween is watch horror movies.

My YouTube channel is doing good, I'm really thankful for that. I've cut back on making videos though..I'm trying to relax and take away my stress.

This online stuff can get really stressful sometimes. But it's ok. I love what I do. Always will!

It's still super hot here in Missouri. Our summers last super long so even though it's not summer it still feels like it.

Anyways that's all I have to say for now...thank you guys for the support and for reading the blog! Love you guys.

How to do a karma cleanse (spiritual advice)

Karma is real...do this and cleanse your Karma..live a happy, positive life!! Clear your karma regularly. Did you know you can clear your karma?

Many people don't know that. Many people don't realize how important karma is. 

Having good karma is really important in life. Karma is what determines how your life will turn out. There is a saying in India "Your karma is your life".

Past lives

That means that the things that happen in your life are a result of your past karma. So you should always be nice to people and be a good person.

Because then you'll have good karma and good things will happen to you. Karma is super important, don't overlook it.

Your life will be super amazing once you start building good karma. 

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We're in a summer heat wave (blog post)

I know the heat is apparently bad in a lot of places right now. LA for one. But try adding Missouri humidity to it!

We have a special kind of heat here. The "mugginess" makes it feel wayyyy hotter than it actually is. I can stand dry heat, but the humid kind can be very hard to deal with.

But I'm not saying it's not hot in LA...119 is pretty crazy!! Will be praying for ya'll. This summer seems to be hot for pretty much everyone.

I am staying inside for the most part. I walked up to Sonic and got a sweet tea..I needed something to cool off.

I love sweet tea in the summer..nothing like it! This summer has started off great so far! It's going to be an awesome one.

I have to sign my lease again for my apartment here in a week or so. Wish me luck. It's a pretty quick, easy process actually.

Enjoying this Friday..a lot. Hope your Friday and your weekend is awesome too!!! Thanks for reading, please share this post.

Summer update (blog post)

It's been a pretty good summer so far...I'm not complaining. I've had a little bit of depression, but that's normal. My step dad died a couple weeks ago, which was right about a year after my Mom died. So I'm still mourning both of them. It's hard but I'm getting through it.

I'm just trying to relax and enjoy my summer. It's been really hot here, but I'll take that over cold weather. Oh yeah, and I got approved into the YouTube partner program again!

I'm super excited about that.

UPDATE 2022: I still love summer, but in recent months, after this past summer, I realized I'm not as much of a summer person as I thought. 

I still love it, but I realized that I'm more of a cool-weather type of person. Which is why I love fall and winter so much.

Maybe it's because that's when I was born.

It's summer!

It's summer, finally!! Well, not officially yet, but it will be in a few days. I'm so excited. It's going to be a great summer, I can already feel it. I have so much to be grateful for.

I am realizing how lucky I am to have everything I need..what more could you ask for? I am really wanting to have some serious fun this summer.

I want to do some really great things. I want to really enjoy my summer and make it last as long as possible.

I wait all year for this time. It's so great. I need to blog more, too. I always slack on my blogging. I just get wrapped up in other things.

But I always miss blogging when I don't do it. I have been making a lot of YouTube videos. I'm doing live streams now. I should post them here on the blog.

I might do that soon. If your'e reading this I hope you're enjoying your summer so far. It's really hot here..I think it is everywhere. It's going to be a hot one for sure. I want to do something I haven't done in a while, like maybe swimming or fishing or something fun like that.

People hating Kanye? (blog post rant)

I'm not sure why so many people are hating Kanye. But at the same time, when you're that famous, and you start talking politics, you are going to lose a lot of people, it's expected.

It's crazy that he lost that many followers. But I feel like he is actually sharing a lot of enlightening things recently.

He's on a very positive path, and I think it will take him far. He gets a lot of undeserved hate for no reason.

I've always like Kanye. I can relate to him on a spiritual level. We think alike in some ways. Everyone has those people they can just relate to, he is one of those people for me.

I think he's in a tough spot. He wants to spread positivity..but he is also really honest sometimes...and a lot of people get offended by it and misinterpret him.

Only he can truly understand what's going on in his brain. But yeah I definitely feel like people need to quit hating him so much. 

Enjoying this spring

Spring is going really good so far. I'm loving the weather. It still gets a little cold at night. My allergies have been really bad this year so far.

Some years are worse than others. I wish I could leave the windows open more, but sometimes I have to close them.

I've been feeling really burned out with YouTube. Taking somewhat of a break. I always work too hard.

Lately I have been working too hard and not quite getting the results I want, so I'm taking a step back.

YouTube can be very draining. You can get burned out on it if you make videos everyday. That's what has been happening. Being a vlogger is hard in some ways.

Because you are constantly sharing your life with the world. And you have to deal with the horrible trolls.

They can be really nasty. 

Things have been good

Things have been good lately. I can't really complain. Spring is here. I'm super excited about that. It's going to be a great spring and summer. I've been working out more, trying to be healthier. I'm not eating very healthy but at least I'm working out so that's better than nothing.

I haven't been making very many YouTube videos. I'm kind of burned out on it. I don't like making videos when I don't feel inspired. Same way with blog posts.

I have been posting quite a bit on my Meme page on Facebook. Here's the link, check it out: https://www.facebook.com/funniestviralmemes/

I would appreciate it if you'd like the page too :) Every like helps my page grow.

I used to have a habit of being really negative. I feel like I'm doing better about that, at least somewhat. Nobody's life is perfect, but we can realize how blessed we are!

I still get depressed, I'm not going to lie. I have to just ride it out when I get depressed. I'm not one of those people who likes to try to force happiness.

I've noticed a lot of people doing that these days. If you're depressed, allow yourself to experience that. It's normal and healthy.

It's not healthy to be depressed all the time, eventually you have to pull yourself out of it. I am learning to realize how much I have to be grateful for, so that I'm not depressed all the time.

But, since I'm bipolar, I will have depression for the rest of my life. It won't just go away. I just have to learn to deal with it. Which I've done pretty well.

If you or someone you know is struggling with depression, or just need someone to talk to,  call 1-800-273-TALK (8255).

I hope that helps. Thanks for reading, and happy spring! Catch you on the next post!

Blogging vs. YouTube (thoughts)

I've been a blogger since around 2009 I think. Somewhere in there. I started YouTube shortly after, but I originally started my YouTube channel to promote my blog.

My first video was me just saying "hey I have this blog, check it out, etc.". I love YouTube. I really enjoy making videos.

In my heart though, I think I will always be a blogger first and foremost. I once asked someone what my strengths were when it came to all this "online stuff". They told me blogging/writing was one of them.

Hey, I'll take it. I always come back to blogging, no matter how many videos I make. I think blogging is where my true passion is.

I love YouTube, don't get me wrong. I'm passionate about it too, but sometimes I find it easier and more fun to blog.

I guess blogging comes a little more naturally to me. I do love them both though. They kind of "complement" each other.

Blogging..break from YouTube :)

I'm "sort of" taking a break from YouTube. I say sort of because, well, I can't really stop YouTube I'm addicted. But I'm mostly laying off of working on my channel and making videos. For now.

I am going to be blogging more. I want to focus more on my blog right now and all that. YouTube and blogging kind of go hand in hand for me.

They are like a great tag-team duo. They compliment each other. My blog is a little more therapeutic maybe..because of the simple fact that it's easier for me to express thoughts in writing.

Sometimes it's hard for me to "fully" open up on video. It's more personal already you know. People watching you and whatnot.

On another note...I have been trying to deal with my mother's death for the last few months. It's been VERY hard.

Some days I hardly do anything. It's really hard for me to talk about her passing. I don't know how to process it or fully deal with it. It's so hard to face.

It doesn't even seem real...like a dream actually. Maybe someday I'll be able to face it..but for now, I'm honestly still in shock, even after a few months.

I'm officially an orphan now. And yes, losing both parents at ANY age means you're an orphan. I don't know how to deal with having both parents gone.

It's so hard. I can't even describe it. I don't know if I'll ever be "fully ok" again. I guess we will see. I am just managing day by day.

I just don't know if I'll ever feel whole and complete again. Death is so hard to deal with. Well anyways enough of that for now, thank you for reading and have an awesome day :)

Getting my stress under control :)

As I mentioned in a previous post, I've been SUPER Stressed out for quite a while. Today I feel a lot better.

I feel like I'm finally getting my stress dealt with. Stress is bad. When you finally get those relaxing moments it's like nothing else.

I'm really thankful. You just have to find things you really enjoy doing, that helps with stress a lot. On another note, the weekend is coming and I'm super excited about it.

I love weekends. It's my favorite time. Everything is so happy and good on the weekend. I woke up this morning in a really good mood. Had some coffee and hopped on the computer.

Uploaded a quick little YouTube video. I hope today is an awesome day. If you're reading this, hope you have an awesome day too :)

Getting over a cold or some kind of bug (blog post)

I've been fighting a really bad cold or flu or something. I've had a terrible sore throat to go along with it. It's been very uncomfortable.

I still have it, although it's not quite as bad as it was. Hopefully, it is leaving. It's been very cold and rainy out. That isn't helping matters.

Although I do love the rain, :) I've been feeling very blessed lately. This new year has started off awesome.

Counting blessings

God has really blessed me. I am so grateful. Last year was hard in some ways, like losing my mother. I'm thankful that this year is a lot better.

It's going to be a great year. I get depressed randomly, but I try to find ways to pull myself out of it. I love when God surprised you with good things. :)

There are good things all around, you just have to look for them. On another note, I really miss some of my friends.

Things change

I have kind of lost contact with a few friends that I really cared about. I miss them and all the fun we had together.

There's nothing like those friends who really "get you" and just understand you on a deep level that no one else does.

We all need friends like that.

Yesterday, it was really warm...like 64 degrees! :) It was awesome, felt just like spring. I regret not going for a long walk. I should have while it was warm.

No one's perfect

Having regrets sucks, but everything happens for a reason. You just have to keep moving forward and stay positive! :)

I've been feeling super stressed from working on YouTube so much and some other things. I'm trying to find healthy ways to deal with my stress.

Blogging helps, it's like a release for me. Looking forward to a year of great Karma and good vibes. I wish the same for you if you're reading this. :) Thank you for reading!

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Stress is bad (blog post)

Do you ever feel really stressed? I've been feeling that way lately. I'm not sure why. I think part of it is my Mom dying last year.

I don't think I've properly dealt with it yet. I don't really know how. It still doesn't seem real to me. I also get really stressed from a bunch of little annoyances that add up.

Can you relate?

We shouldn't let little things bother us. But sometimes they just keep adding up and that's where I get really stressed out. I need to learn to relax more.

I take anxiety medication as needed for my extreme anxiety.

It helps a lot. I think I just need to learn to express my feelings more.

That's always been hard for me. I bottle things up really bad. I think we all do that to some extent. I just have a lot on my heart and mind that is waiting to come out.

I've just been through a lot.

Still trying to figure out how to process it all. I need to remember to be grateful for all the little things, and also to not let the little annoyances bring me down.

After all, they are part of life. Therapy would probably help me a lot, but I've never been totally comfortable opening up to a stranger.

I think I'd just rather deal with things on my own. Blogging is like therapy for me. It really works. Just getting everything out.

Anyways thank you for reading, more to come later.

New year awesomeness! (New Year's day blog post)

It's a new year, and I'm really feeling the positivity. I feel like it's gonna be a really great year. It will be even better than last year.

I've made a few resolutions, which I hope to keep. Even if I don't keep them, it's about the journey and who you become in the process.

I've mostly been up to the same stuff, making YouTube videos and whatnot. Life is good, I can't complain.

The weather is also unusually warm right now for this time of year. That's why I love Missouri..it can get warm in the middle of winter! It's awesome.

Spring really isn't that far away. It usually gets warm pretty early here..usually around the end of February.

Also I've been doing live streams on YouTube..they are pretty long, one of them was 30 minutes long. It's pretty cool making really long videos.

Anyways, one of my resolutions is going to be to hopefully blog more on this blog. So stick around!

Thanks so much for reading guys,

Talk soon.