Blogging..(and taking a break from YouTube)

I'm "sort of" taking a break from YouTube. I say sort of because, well, I can't really stop YouTube, I'm addicted. But I'm mostly laying off working on my channel and making videos. For now.

I am going to be blogging more. I want to focus more on my blog right now and all that. YouTube and blogging kind of go hand in hand for me.

They are like a great tag-team duo. They complement each other. My blog is a little more therapeutic, maybe, because of the simple fact that it's easier for me to express thoughts in writing.

Video is different than writing

Sometimes it's hard for me to "fully" open up on video. It's more personal already, you know. People are watching you and whatnot.

On another note...I have been trying to deal with my mother's death for the last few months. It's been VERY hard.

Some days I hardly do anything. It's really hard for me to talk about her passing. I don't know how to process it or fully deal with it. It's so hard to face.

It doesn't even seem real...like a dream, actually. Maybe someday I'll be able to face it, but for now, I'm honestly still in shock, even after a few months.

Losing your parents is weird

I'm officially an orphan now. And yes, losing both parents at ANY age means you're an orphan. I don't know how to deal with having both parents gone.

It's so hard. I can't even describe it. I don't know if I'll ever be "fully ok" again. I guess we will see. I am just managing day by day.

I just don't know if I'll ever feel whole and complete again. Death is so hard to deal with. Well, anyway, enough of that for now. Thank you for reading, and have an awesome day :)

Getting my stress under control :)

As I mentioned in a previous post, I've been SUPER Stressed out for quite a while. Today I feel a lot better.

I feel like I'm finally getting my stress dealt with. Stress is bad. When you finally get those relaxing moments, it's like nothing else.

Practicing gratitude

I'm really thankful. You just have to find things you really enjoy doing, that helps with stress a lot. On another note, the weekend is coming, and I'm super excited about it.

I love weekends. It's my favorite time. Everything is so happy and good on the weekend. I woke up this morning in a fantastic mood. Had some coffee and hopped on the computer.

Did something I enjoyed

Uploaded a quick little YouTube video. I hope today is an awesome day. If you're reading this, hope you have an awesome day too. :)

Getting over a cold or some kind of bug (blog post)

I've been fighting a really bad cold, flu, or something. I've had a terrible sore throat to go along with it. It's been very uncomfortable.

I still have it, although it's not quite as bad as it was. Hopefully, it is leaving. It's been very cold and rainy out. That isn't helping matters.

Although I do love the rain, :) I've been feeling very blessed lately. This new year has started off awesome.

Counting blessings

God has really blessed me. I am so grateful. Last year was hard in some ways, like losing my mother. I'm thankful that this year is a lot better.

It's going to be a great year. I get depressed randomly, but I try to find ways to pull myself out of it. I love it when God surprises you with good things. :)

There are good things all around; you just have to look for them. On another note, I really miss some of my friends.

Things change

I have kind of lost contact with a few friends that I really cared about. I miss them and all the fun we had together.

There's nothing like those friends who really "get you" and just understand you on a deep level that no one else does.

We all need friends like that.

Yesterday, it was really warm...like 64 degrees! :) It was awesome, felt just like spring. I regret not going for a long walk. I should have while it was warm.

No one's perfect

Having regrets sucks, but everything happens for a reason. You just have to keep moving forward and stay positive! :)

I've been feeling super stressed from working on YouTube so much and some other things. I'm trying to find healthy ways to deal with my stress.

Blogging helps; it's like a release for me. Looking forward to a year of great Karma and good vibes. I wish the same for you if you're reading this. :) Thank you for reading!

Please share.

Stress is bad (I've been feeling it lately)

Do you ever feel really stressed? I've been feeling that way lately. I'm not sure why. I think part of it was my Mom dying last year.

I don't think I've properly dealt with it yet. I don't really know how. It still doesn't seem real to me. I also get really stressed from a bunch of little annoyances that add up.

I don't like stress.

Can you relate?

We shouldn't let little things bother us. But sometimes they just keep adding up, and that's where I get really stressed out. I need to learn to relax more.

I take anxiety medication as needed 

It helps a lot. I think I just need to learn to express my feelings more.

That's always been hard for me. I bottle things up really badly. I think we all do that to some extent. I just have a lot on my heart and mind that is waiting to come out.

Let's try to stay calm.

I've just been through a lot

Still trying to figure out how to process it all. I need to remember to be grateful for all the little things, and also not to let the little annoyances bring me down.

After all, they are part of life. Therapy would probably help me a lot, but I've never been totally comfortable opening up to a stranger.

I think I'd just rather deal with things on my own. Blogging is like therapy for me. It really works. Just getting everything out.

Anyway, thank you for reading. More to come later.

New year awesomeness! (New Year's day blog post)

It's a new year, and I'm really feeling the positivity. I feel like it's gonna be a really great year. It will be even better than last year.

I've made a few resolutions, which I hope to keep. Even if I don't keep them, it's about the journey and who you become in the process.

I've mostly been up to the same stuff, making YouTube videos and whatnot. Life is good, I can't complain.

Lots to be grateful for

The weather is also unusually warm right now for this time of year. That's why I love Missouri. It can get warm in the middle of winter! It's awesome.

Spring really isn't that far away. It usually gets warm pretty early here, usually around the end of February.

What else I've been up to

Also, I've been doing live streams on YouTube. They are pretty long; one of them was 30 minutes long. It's pretty cool making really long videos.

Anyways, one of my resolutions is going to be to hopefully blog more on this blog. So stick around!

Thanks so much for reading, guys.

Talk soon.

Happy Halloween (it's one of my favorite holidays tonight)

Isn't this a great holiday?

It's that awesome time of year again, it's Samhain, my favorite Holiday! Well, that and Christmas. Halloween is here, and you can feel it in the air. It's that time of year when all the ghouls come out to play, and people trick or treat looking for something sweet. AND...horror movies!! My favorite part of Halloween! I am watching Halloween 2 right now as we speak, and it's Halloween Eve, almost midnight. 

Having the best Hallow's Eve

Couldn't think of a more epic way to spend Halloween! I'm not sure if I'm gonna get a mask or anything for tomorrow night, we shall see. Could be fun, as always. I don't know if I'll go anywhere, but at the very least, I'm gonna watch horror movies! 

Doing my favorite activities

I might even go on a Ghost Hunt since I do love paranormal investigating. It's one of my passions! I'm in a very good mood..and I hope you have an AWESOME HALLOWEEN!! 

Do you love Halloween too? Or Samhain, whatever you like to call it. Leave a comment and let us know how much you love it. We'd love to hear from you.

I'm feeling blessed lately (random thoughts)

I took a few vacation days in the city near where I live. It was a nice break. Sometimes we all need a break.

Then I got back to making YouTube videos. I love making videos, but sometimes I get burned out on it.

A woman in a brown shirt is smiling in a public park outside.

I'm thankful for all my blessings; God is good. It's finally fall, but it still feels like summer here in Missouri.

How the weather's been

Our weather is so wild here. We don't really have seasons in the same way other places do. It can get warm right in the middle of winter sometimes.

What else has been going on?

I had someone ask me today about my blog and how he could set one up. I told him Blogger.com blogs are awesome.

I've always been a fan of Blogger.

Why fixing a bad attitude in life is important (blog post)

A bad attitude can literally block blessings from coming into your life. I have learned this more and more. I have had problems with my attitude for a long time, ever since I can remember.

I am learning as I go along to be more grateful for everything I have. God has been so good to me. Sometimes we just need some perspective, to stop and look around, and realize how good we have it.

Life is good

When we truly see that, how can we have a bad attitude?

Life is really amazing. You just have to look around. Focus on all the great things you have going in your life. 

Be happy, not sad

Everyone has something to be grateful for. Each and every one of us. Be grateful every day and things will just get better and better for you.

What's considered "selling out"? (making money online)

When it comes to making money online? What would you consider "selling out"? A lot of people think that putting ads on your blog or YouTube videos is selling out.

It's really not. Lots of people make money online from blogging, YouTube, affiliate marketing, and so on.

Lots of ways to make money online

There's nothing wrong with that. It's a real business for many people. So why do people judge them for that?

I understand some people don't like ads on a website, but realistically, it's commonplace now. Even on YouTube.

Advertising online is normal

Almost every video has ads on it now. People have to make a living. You can't fault them for that. I personally think it's awesome if a blogger is able to make money from it; more power to them!

I don't feel like it's selling out to place ads there. It's just a part of the whole package deal. I don't feel like it takes away from the experience at all, in my opinion. 

Being a YouTuber comes with a lot of pressure (quick rant)

I feel like there's all this "pressure" when you're a YouTuber. I guess there's pressure with lots of things in life, but as a YouTuber, there's all this pressure to make "quality content." What does that even mean?

If I make a video that I had fun making and I'm doing what I enjoy, that's all that matters to me. I don't want to be like everyone else on YouTube.

That takes away the fun of it for me. I just want to have fun making the type of videos that I want to make.

I mean sure I can always strive to make my content better, but I'm not going to sell out. I have a passion for making vlog type videos. That's what I like doing.