I've been depressed lately

Trying not to be depressed, but it's hard. It's just a lot of things. The fall weather does it to me even worse, even though I have depression no matter what time of year it is. I think I feel things a lot deeper than some people.

I could be wrong…it just seems like some things really hit me hard. I think I've just been more emotional since my Mom died.

It was traumatic

That was really hard for me. I didn't get therapy for it, which I probably should, but I can't bring myself too.

I still try to deal with it every day. It's been like 2 years, and I am still pretty raw from it. 

I know it will be a long time before I'm "OK"…I just have to keep working through it.

It's a process

Some days are a lot harder than others. Some days I'm so depressed, and I miss her so much...all I want to do is lie around and do nothing.

Sometimes I am just too down to do anything, so I just barely get anything done. That's just how it is, I guess.

Depression is hard

It's been a while since I've felt truly "OK".

But I put one foot in front of the other…just hoping for things to get better.

I actually do have faith and I know things will get better. After I get out of this dark period. Things are good in a lot of ways, but something is missing.

I just need to give it time…everything will be OK.

The cold weather is here (blog post)

The cold weather is finally here. It was only a matter of time. It's fine, this is fine. Hahah. It's ok...winter and fall has it's own good things about it.

I'm ready for Halloween. I hope this year is awesome! I love Halloween it's probably my favorite Holiday, and then Christmas after that.

I don't know what I'm doing for Halloween this year. I hope something fun. I'm more into the spiritual aspects of it.

Like the veil between the worlds being the thinnest on that day, etc. It would be fun to dress up, I haven't done that in so long.

I wish I had someone to spend Halloween with. Maybe I will, who knows. I do want to watch some horror movies at least though, or some ghost shows. I frigging love ghost shows!

Just be chill (why you should walk away from arguments)

When I hear about people getting into arguments and stuff...I totally get it, I've been there. We all get into it with people sometimes.

Walk away from toxic situations.

But I feel like people need to learn to walk away. People's pride gets in the way, and they feel like they need to fight back.

Don't fight 

The only time you need to do that is if you're protecting yourself. Otherwise, it's not worth it. Just learn to be the bigger person and walk away.

Protect your peace at all costs.

Toxic situations are bad

And if you're in a relationship that's toxic, please find a way to get out. I know that's easier said than done sometimes, but there's always a way.

Surround yourself with people who lift you up, not bring you down. You'll thank yourself for only bringing peace into your life, trust me.