Summer update (blog post)

It's been a pretty good summer so far...I'm not complaining. I've had a little bit of depression, but that's normal. My step dad died a couple weeks ago, which was right about a year after my Mom died. So I'm still mourning both of them. It's hard but I'm getting through it.

I'm just trying to relax and enjoy my summer. It's been really hot here, but I'll take that over cold weather. Oh yeah, and I got approved into the YouTube partner program again!

I'm super excited about that.

UPDATE 2022: I still love summer, but in recent months, after this past summer, I realized I'm not as much of a summer person as I thought. 

I still love it, but I realized that I'm more of a cool-weather type of person. Which is why I love fall and winter so much.

Maybe it's because that's when I was born.

It's summer!

It's summer, finally!! Well, not officially yet, but it will be in a few days. I'm so excited. It's going to be a great summer, I can already feel it. I have so much to be grateful for.

I am realizing how lucky I am to have everything I need..what more could you ask for? I am really wanting to have some serious fun this summer.

I want to do some really great things. I want to really enjoy my summer and make it last as long as possible.

I wait all year for this time. It's so great. I need to blog more, too. I always slack on my blogging. I just get wrapped up in other things.

But I always miss blogging when I don't do it. I have been making a lot of YouTube videos. I'm doing live streams now. I should post them here on the blog.

I might do that soon. If your'e reading this I hope you're enjoying your summer so far. It's really hot here..I think it is everywhere. It's going to be a hot one for sure. I want to do something I haven't done in a while, like maybe swimming or fishing or something fun like that.

People hating Kanye? (blog post rant)

I'm not sure why so many people are hating Kanye. But at the same time, when you're that famous, and you start talking politics, you are going to lose a lot of people, it's expected.

It's crazy that he lost that many followers. But I feel like he is actually sharing a lot of enlightening things recently.

He's on a very positive path, and I think it will take him far. He gets a lot of undeserved hate for no reason.

I've always like Kanye. I can relate to him on a spiritual level. We think alike in some ways. Everyone has those people they can just relate to, he is one of those people for me.

I think he's in a tough spot. He wants to spread positivity..but he is also really honest sometimes...and a lot of people get offended by it and misinterpret him.

Only he can truly understand what's going on in his brain. But yeah I definitely feel like people need to quit hating him so much. 

Enjoying this spring

Spring is going really good so far. I'm loving the weather. It still gets a little cold at night. My allergies have been really bad this year so far.

Some years are worse than others. I wish I could leave the windows open more, but sometimes I have to close them.

I've been feeling really burned out with YouTube. Taking somewhat of a break. I always work too hard.

Lately I have been working too hard and not quite getting the results I want, so I'm taking a step back.

YouTube can be very draining. You can get burned out on it if you make videos everyday. That's what has been happening. Being a vlogger is hard in some ways.

Because you are constantly sharing your life with the world. And you have to deal with the horrible trolls.

They can be really nasty. 

Things have been good

Things have been good lately. I can't really complain. Spring is here. I'm super excited about that. It's going to be a great spring and summer. I've been working out more, trying to be healthier. I'm not eating very healthy but at least I'm working out so that's better than nothing.

I haven't been making very many YouTube videos. I'm kind of burned out on it. I don't like making videos when I don't feel inspired. Same way with blog posts.

I have been posting quite a bit on my Meme page on Facebook. Here's the link, check it out: https://www.facebook.com/funniestviralmemes/

I would appreciate it if you'd like the page too :) Every like helps my page grow.

I used to have a habit of being really negative. I feel like I'm doing better about that, at least somewhat. Nobody's life is perfect, but we can realize how blessed we are!

I still get depressed, I'm not going to lie. I have to just ride it out when I get depressed. I'm not one of those people who likes to try to force happiness.

I've noticed a lot of people doing that these days. If you're depressed, allow yourself to experience that. It's normal and healthy.

It's not healthy to be depressed all the time, eventually you have to pull yourself out of it. I am learning to realize how much I have to be grateful for, so that I'm not depressed all the time.

But, since I'm bipolar, I will have depression for the rest of my life. It won't just go away. I just have to learn to deal with it. Which I've done pretty well.

If you or someone you know is struggling with depression, or just need someone to talk to,  call 1-800-273-TALK (8255).

I hope that helps. Thanks for reading, and happy spring! Catch you on the next post!

Blogging vs. YouTube (thoughts)

I've been a blogger since around 2009 I think. Somewhere in there. I started YouTube shortly after, but I originally started my YouTube channel to promote my blog.

My first video was me just saying "hey I have this blog, check it out, etc.". I love YouTube. I really enjoy making videos.

In my heart though, I think I will always be a blogger first and foremost. I once asked someone what my strengths were when it came to all this "online stuff". They told me blogging/writing was one of them.

Hey, I'll take it. I always come back to blogging, no matter how many videos I make. I think blogging is where my true passion is.

I love YouTube, don't get me wrong. I'm passionate about it too, but sometimes I find it easier and more fun to blog.

I guess blogging comes a little more naturally to me. I do love them both though. They kind of "complement" each other.

Blogging..break from YouTube :)

I'm "sort of" taking a break from YouTube. I say sort of because, well, I can't really stop YouTube I'm addicted. But I'm mostly laying off of working on my channel and making videos. For now.

I am going to be blogging more. I want to focus more on my blog right now and all that. YouTube and blogging kind of go hand in hand for me.

They are like a great tag-team duo. They compliment each other. My blog is a little more therapeutic maybe..because of the simple fact that it's easier for me to express thoughts in writing.

Sometimes it's hard for me to "fully" open up on video. It's more personal already you know. People watching you and whatnot.

On another note...I have been trying to deal with my mother's death for the last few months. It's been VERY hard.

Some days I hardly do anything. It's really hard for me to talk about her passing. I don't know how to process it or fully deal with it. It's so hard to face.

It doesn't even seem real...like a dream actually. Maybe someday I'll be able to face it..but for now, I'm honestly still in shock, even after a few months.

I'm officially an orphan now. And yes, losing both parents at ANY age means you're an orphan. I don't know how to deal with having both parents gone.

It's so hard. I can't even describe it. I don't know if I'll ever be "fully ok" again. I guess we will see. I am just managing day by day.

I just don't know if I'll ever feel whole and complete again. Death is so hard to deal with. Well anyways enough of that for now, thank you for reading and have an awesome day :)

Getting my stress under control :)

As I mentioned in a previous post, I've been SUPER Stressed out for quite a while. Today I feel a lot better.

I feel like I'm finally getting my stress dealt with. Stress is bad. When you finally get those relaxing moments it's like nothing else.

I'm really thankful. You just have to find things you really enjoy doing, that helps with stress a lot. On another note, the weekend is coming and I'm super excited about it.

I love weekends. It's my favorite time. Everything is so happy and good on the weekend. I woke up this morning in a really good mood. Had some coffee and hopped on the computer.

Uploaded a quick little YouTube video. I hope today is an awesome day. If you're reading this, hope you have an awesome day too :)

Getting over a cold or some kind of bug (blog post)

I've been fighting a really bad cold or flu or something. I've had a terrible sore throat to go along with it. It's been very uncomfortable.

I still have it, although it's not quite as bad as it was. Hopefully, it is leaving. It's been very cold and rainy out. That isn't helping matters.

Although I do love the rain, :) I've been feeling very blessed lately. This new year has started off awesome.

Counting blessings

God has really blessed me. I am so grateful. Last year was hard in some ways, like losing my mother. I'm thankful that this year is a lot better.

It's going to be a great year. I get depressed randomly, but I try to find ways to pull myself out of it. I love when God surprised you with good things. :)

There are good things all around, you just have to look for them. On another note, I really miss some of my friends.

Things change

I have kind of lost contact with a few friends that I really cared about. I miss them and all the fun we had together.

There's nothing like those friends who really "get you" and just understand you on a deep level that no one else does.

We all need friends like that.

Yesterday, it was really warm...like 64 degrees! :) It was awesome, felt just like spring. I regret not going for a long walk. I should have while it was warm.

No one's perfect

Having regrets sucks, but everything happens for a reason. You just have to keep moving forward and stay positive! :)

I've been feeling super stressed from working on YouTube so much and some other things. I'm trying to find healthy ways to deal with my stress.

Blogging helps, it's like a release for me. Looking forward to a year of great Karma and good vibes. I wish the same for you if you're reading this. :) Thank you for reading!

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Stress is bad (blog post)

Do you ever feel really stressed? I've been feeling that way lately. I'm not sure why. I think part of it was my Mom dying last year.

I don't think I've properly dealt with it yet. I don't really know how. It still doesn't seem real to me. I also get really stressed from a bunch of little annoyances that add up.

I don't like stress

Can you relate?

We shouldn't let little things bother us. But sometimes they just keep adding up and that's where I get really stressed out. I need to learn to relax more.

I take anxiety medication as needed 

It helps a lot. I think I just need to learn to express my feelings more.

That's always been hard for me. I bottle things up really bad. I think we all do that to some extent. I just have a lot on my heart and mind that is waiting to come out.

I've just been through a lot

Still trying to figure out how to process it all. I need to remember to be grateful for all the little things, and also to not let the little annoyances bring me down.

After all, they are part of life. Therapy would probably help me a lot, but I've never been totally comfortable opening up to a stranger.

I think I'd just rather deal with things on my own. Blogging is like therapy for me. It really works. Just getting everything out.

Anyway, thank you for reading, more to come later.

New year awesomeness! (New Year's day blog post)

It's a new year, and I'm really feeling the positivity. I feel like it's gonna be a really great year. It will be even better than last year.

I've made a few resolutions, which I hope to keep. Even if I don't keep them, it's about the journey and who you become in the process.

I've mostly been up to the same stuff, making YouTube videos and whatnot. Life is good, I can't complain.

The weather is also unusually warm right now for this time of year. That's why I love Missouri..it can get warm in the middle of winter! It's awesome.

Spring really isn't that far away. It usually gets warm pretty early here..usually around the end of February.

Also I've been doing live streams on YouTube..they are pretty long, one of them was 30 minutes long. It's pretty cool making really long videos.

Anyways, one of my resolutions is going to be to hopefully blog more on this blog. So stick around!

Thanks so much for reading guys,

Talk soon.

Happy Halloween (blog post)

It's that awesome time of year again, and my favorite Holiday! Well that and Christmas. Halloween is here, and you can feel it in the air. It's that time of year when all the ghouls come out to play, and people trick or treat looking for something sweet. AND...horror movies!! My favorite part of Halloween!! I am watching Halloween 2 right now as we speak, and it's Halloween Eve, almost midnight. 

Couldn't think of a more epic way to spend Halloween! I'm not sure if I'm gonna get a mask or anything for tomorrow night, we shall see. Could be fun, as always. I don't know if I'll go anywhere, but at the very least I'm gonna watch horror movies! 

I might even go on a Ghost Hunt since I do love paranormal investigating. It's one of my passions! I'm in a very good mood..and I hope you have an AWESOME HALLOWEEN!! 

Do you love Halloween too? Or Samhain, whatever you like to call it. Leave a comment and let us know how much you love it, we'd love to hear from you.

Feeling blessed (random thoughts)

I took a few vacation days in the city near where I live. It was a nice break. Sometimes we all need a break.

Then I got back to making YouTube videos. I love making videos but sometimes I get burned out on it.

I'm thankful for all my blessings, God is good. It's finally fall but it still feels like summer here in Missouri.

Our weather is so wild here. We don't really have seasons in the same way other places do. It can get warm right in the middle of winter sometimes.

I had someone ask me today about my blog and how he could set one up. I told him blogger.com blogs are awesome.

I've always been a fan of blogger.